Thursday, June 11, 2009

inhuman capabilities


There is a place in dreams where we can expel any inhibition and are able to react to situations, albeit unnatural or surreal, and be someone who we could never be. This might not be entirely true, perhaps the person we see ourselves as in dreams could be a monster retained by our better awakened reason. I had the same type of dream two nights in a row it was regarding a fantasy world of mobsters at war in a land ruled by greed and treason. I was in the midst of them, one of them, rather one of the chiefest of sinners in the lot. I found myself throttling men who may not have been innocent men, but in reality how could I ever know my capabilities of killing or harming someone if it is not in my waking nature to do so. People look at killers and judge and rightly so, but how far down does anger and violence dwell. We hope there is no such monster in us. We hope that only fear and the need to defend would arouse such thoughts and feelings of inhuman capabilities. We are all innocent except in the realm of the night where dreams unfurl lavishness and animalistic brutality. We are awake now, aren’t we?

Wednesday, June 10, 2009


Sometimes it seems that all energies are spent on things that don’t require attention. Last night I had a dream that I was shopping at a secondhand store in a town that I had not been in for at least a decade in Oregon. I went into the shop to buy a suit and tie. I could not find a price on the tie and went to a clerk to ask for a price. I thought I heard wrong when I heard “35$”, so I asked again, the price was 35$. I flabbergasted said something under my breath and stormed out of the store with nothing. This was just a dream but when I awoke I had a feeling of being swindled. Are we all being swindled? I think we need to be on our guard, things have gotten so that many of us are unaware of most things going on around us the leaders of our country would like for us to all sit quietly and to more importantly believe that we are drifting smoothly on calm waters. The sea will remain calm only for a finite period then sooner or later a storm will rise up from the deep. So when a secondhand neck tie costs 35$ at Goodwill. Then we will know something is wrong, no, that is not what I think I am saying. Crap sneaks up on you kind of quickly when you are looking elsewhere. That is what I think I am saying.